The girl I was

The girl I was in there was soft and sweet and romantic, I forgot about her because after all I've been through if I'm her people take advantage. So I let myself form into someone fierce and perhaps bitter, because it hurts too much to love and be kind when they rape, lie, cheat and hit her. 

Kill the feeling? Begin the healing? The fate I'm sealing. The wheels are turning, the thoughts are burning, everything is hurting and I'm not learning how to be better, can I just forget her? The girl who couldn't take it anymore, she tried to end it all before, can we shut the door? her heart is bleeding on the floor. It can't last forever so I'm writing this letter, please remember. Who am I, who was she? I keep her locked away inside of me. I protect her now because no one else did, an optimistic and trusting little girl named Shaylen.