I’m toxic UwU

Sometimes I’m toxic. I fear being seen a certain way. With good intentions I fall short of doing the right thing at times. I’m responsible for the things I do nobody else. At the end of the day the trauma and mental illness I struggle with is my own responsibility to heal. I’ve had to be my own protector, friend, parent, lover, and unfortunately enemy. I can shift the blame to the things or people that I feel triggered by but that will never help me to overcome. The truth is these things I’m feeling and experiencing will continue to reoccur in my life if I don’t focus on the root of the problems. The core of what is inside of ME that I have to focus on healing and changing. Do not allow your past to write your future. This is your storyline and there are things we don’t get to choose. We do get to choose how we take the pen and start a new chapter. We do get to choose how yesteryear’s pain impacts our today. It won’t just magically go away by resolutions and goals. It’s a daily work for the rest of our lives.