Bathtub Thoughts

A year ago today, my podgi died, and mom went into the hospital. Today I finished paying half of my deposit on my apartment. As painful as the next two months are going to be, grieving, I'm working hard to make sure that I'm moving forward and healing. Maybe this time next year I'll be preparing to move to California, or Oregon, or Hawaii, perhaps Italy. You can't know exactly where life will bring you but I do know this, I'm building. I don't know if mom would be proud of me for making it to where I am mentally, but I do know I'm proud of me, and that's hard. All of this is hard. But life doesn't wait, and the future will be brighter, I'm sure of that for once in my life, because I'm taking control of my mind and behaviors, working to build knew ways of thinking. 😶‍🌫️ Conquering fear starts with recognizing your mental patterns that trapped you in survival mode, autopilot. To change your life you must first change your mind.