December 29th 2019 why

Why this? Why now? Are you just f****** with me? Are you proud? Is this your game? I'm pleased to entertain, but if you wouldn't mind I'd rather just take your last name. Oh. Oh no. Did I say that s*** right here? My words are betraying me even though they know my fears. Okay so this is how it is, if I lay it all out on the table will you be happy or maybe you won't give a damn about this? I don't know I don't think I care what you think anymore. You're messing with my head and I'm feeling like a w****. Yeah all right, I'm a w**** for you, but it's not my body I'm advertising just every bit of emotion I have to offer I do. Though I haven't said it we both know what's going on. I'll speak it into thin air just in case I'm wrong. It's me. It's all me and it's all in my head. It'll be easier to think of it like that than to wonder who's in your bed. It shouldn't matter to me where your hands are roaming. You're not mine and I don't play at owning. You're free to be and I'm in no rush, but damn I hate you, f*** this crush.