Shattering perceptions.

Nothing goes right for me, I can’t get my hopes up because nothing good happens to me unless something bad happens after. That is the reality I was conditioned to. I’m never chosen, I can never be happy, I’ll always be sad. I always disappoint, I’m not smart, I can’t escape. Repetitive trauma causes behavioral and mental irregularities that form the way we see the world around us and our own selves. Our identity is consumed within the stimulation we are receiving. Everything you have come to believe about yourself and your future, your present, it is all shaped every second we come into the world. We are always seeing the world with new eyes when we come into it, and with new eyes, comes curiosity. When curiosity is discouraged and even punished in our early stages of life, it affects the way we see everything. This can develop strong and persistent feelings of not being adequate, of having to feel perfect all of the time, but doubting yourself so deeply that you never feel perfect, sticking you in a state of constant self-defeat. When our curiosity dies, depression takes root in the fiber of our entire perceived reality.